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another realization

im the only one pushing everything to turn out just the way i expect them to be

got it? hahaha =)

lately [or i think even before], i always am the one doing everything
i act like a leader who would do the task once it hasn't been done
im a kind of a person who dont feel like ignoring everything that are not assigned to me
that's why i do such tasks not assigned to me
so that the project would be done the faster way

i think i have to change myself now
just a bit
i need to be more strict to myself [not to others]
i will try to do only the things i ought to do
i wont do such tasks not designed for me to do

i wont push myself to drive a car simply because i dont know how to drive
i wont push myself to belong to the group because i belong to another group
i wont push myself to act like a special one because i only am normal
just like you

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let me ask you a question:

is there a need to ignore some people just to forget everything with you?

i think that is a big no

as in NO

there's no way you could totally forget someone who went to your life

since that person is already insode your little memory

i don't believe with the idea that

"to forget someone totally, absence is the best way"

because

"the more you do not see the person, the more you think of that"

why not face the person instead?

and put effort of treating that one as a normal friend of yours?

time would tell, without noticing it

the one in front of you talking nonsense things, just like your other friends

is the one you want to forget before

for those who did not get it, what i mean here is like

"face the problem, not avoid it"

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