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it's still early
early in the morning
yet i'm still awake
i dont know why
maybe i'm just a bit worried
worried about everything

too many "what if"s enter my mind

what if
i cannot enroll this sem (due to some financial problems) ?
my current boss will fire me ?
i cannot get a stable job (which would result to her "no" answer) ?
everything i am thinking of would be the other way around ?
what if ?

i really do not know what to do if all my "what if"s would happen
i would rather die
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HELP!! anyone ?!?

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it's morning, early in the morning (as usual)

planning to sleep later, after the uploads :)

anywayz, just wanna talk about her

yes, that girl =)

it's nice to see that we just texted for hours

and she reminded me of my habit during my first year in college life

i'm not that pc addict by that time, so i always hold my cellphone

to check for new messages almost every minute (no joke)

how nostalgic :' (

but past is past - i know

i have no reason to remember them all

now i just reminisce the things i do before, not the things happened =)

and i love my life now, maybe because i'm more mature this time

i gained more knowledge (although it made my brain rough) =)

and this time, all i can say is

i love her

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i just love my saturday!

although no date happened, we met (at least)
and join her in her way back home
she did not allow me to enter their house, but rather let me go for a joyride only
but that's ok
i mean
very OK
rather than not with her in her way back

*pump*

=)

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i went home by almost 1 am, and have no idea about what to do
im expecting of being sleepy by 4am (as usual)
i want to do something, that could be more useful (aside from this blog)
i want to earn money
=)

actually, im doing some projects for other persons (it-related projects, to be specific)
and im enjoying them - to be honest
i enjoy doing projects like those without any payment to receive from them
i just need a treat from them - dinner of breakfast treat would be good enough

but my parents always ask me about these things i am doing
they always ask me about these works (since they are overnight)

i would simply say " im just helping them "
because i know they wouldn't understand me if ill say " i just love to do it "

you might even not understand me, but i do
i do love doing stuffs like these, with or without payment
i want to gain experiences and knowledge
since i have no time to review them back later

i'm too busy with my current work, so i have no time to review everything from the top
and i am treating these way of helping them as a self-review
so that i don't need much review later
=)

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just wanna tell you a story
a very good story
that you must not follow =)

i received my task for this week, and it has five subtasks
im already done with the other three (four, actually - i just did it hours ago)

i also did a draft for the other one left

this one thing is the final task that my boos gave me
so i read the instructions, word by word,
and reread them, and reread them, and reread them
to make sure that i'll be doing the right one

i did the first draft, and read them to check
i reread the instructions and relate it to the output i made

looks like i did a wrong one
so i decided to restart from scratch and do the reasearch again
so quick i did it for less than an hour
and then submitted the document

a day after, he sent me a reply email, concerning about the outputs i submitted
he has no problem about the other four

except for the final task

he just simply said, "that's not the one i'm expecting of"

then he explained the task further
and i said, ok
i simply said, i understood now
i'll be finishing this task by monday

then sunday night (today), the night before the deadline
i decided to review the final task
if i can do it this night

and after all my efforts did
after all my rereading of the instructions
i just realized

the first draft i made was the right thing he is expecting!

what a shame
i don't know if i have to laugh or cry
badtrip

the worse thing is, i did not create any backup copy of that first draft!

how's that?

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